Let's Forget The Weekend

I got my period over the weekend and along with it my gut went nuts, my body went wonky, and I've done not much of anything but watch movies on TV and have flashbacks from the past months of where I was sick in the hospital or sick at home. Why does our brain suddenly release these memories when triggered by a sound, a scent, or a visual stimuli?

It feel like I'm in a mental prison and no matter how many "happy thoughts" I try to remember to chase away the icky-awful ones, the icky-awful ones are too vivid for my comfort level.

This weekend I've not been pleased with being an ostomate because I've had to wear underwear and I hate wearing underwear. My period isn't very heavy, though it has a right be since it's been on hold for three months. The cramps were typical for me, but the emotional/hormonal aspect has been three months' worth of PMS.

This evening we're going over to my dad's house for pizza. I just hope I can make it through without feeling worse. I do feel better than the past two days. That's because I've medicated myself into a stupor. When it doubt: medicate. It always seems to do the trick.

Pooky was real good about making food. I sent him to buy steaks and he even grilled them perfectly. He also got the rice made ok; too wet the first night, but good the second. I know I bitch at him when he cooks; it's that damn Virgo trait of mine to hover and worry about food being prepared exactly right, so more often than not I snap and then have to apologize later for my outbursts. He just chalks it up to PMS. That sums up what being a Virgo can be like at times: never-ending PMS.

I've got weddings the next two weekends, two a piece for each Saturday. The phonebook ad lady called me today to remind me it's time to renew the phonebook ad. I want to expand into the Olympia market; hope it won't cost me an arm and two legs. The ad I currently have was over $800. Advertizing isn't cheap! I just hope the ad will pay for itself. I have gotten maybe 5 calls from the ad but no real income from it. I think it will take awhile before people catch on.

So much for early menopause! (The percocet has kicked in so I'll sign off before I give away trade secrets!)